This is for me

I almost forgot that this was the whole point. Write Gab, just let it out. Who the fuck cares if it’s read or understood, it’s for YOU. So hey guys - fuck off real fast and lemme get this out :) ty

The last several months have been peaks and valleys to no surprise. I finally found a great therapist that challenges me. And that’s a PSA to everyone; if your therapist is just agreeing with you and going with whatever BS you’re spewing, get a new therapist. Your therapist is not your friend, they are someone you pay to help you, so LET THEM. And don’t take shit personally, they’re literally jut trying to help. Most of the things that my therapist calls me on, I already knew deep down and didn’t want to confront SO there you go. But anyways, yes, I’ve been in biweekly therapy, which may seem like a lot, but like if you can’t carve out one hour of reflection for every 2 weeks of survival…c’mon girl. I think there’s also a misconception about frequent therapy and I’m here to say that there doesn’t need to be an ongoing trauma or disaster in your life to want to check in every other week with a trained professional. Some weeks I’m in therapy and smiley, joking, and all around pretty happy. Other times, I go in expecting a pretty light session and with honesty and vulnerability I leave with way more insight about myself than I went in with. Keep an open mind…as much as we like to think we have all of the answers, even the most emotionally intelligent people need an unbiased third-party opinion.

I’ve also started broadening the genres that I’m reading. I started reading a book called, “We Can Do Hard Things” and it gives answers to life’s 20 questions. Do all of the responses pertain to me? No. However, I’ve always thought that everything in life is made better with broader perspective and this book has been offering exactly that. For one thing, it offers the science behind how trauma is passed down genetically because it alters our DNA. Now - who the hell would have known that?! If that isn’t grounds to give yourself some extra grace…I mean...we’re literally carrying trauma from generations ago. Of course we need to work on ourselves. So that’s exactly what I’ve been doing - working on myself. AND I think this blog is going to help me do just that.

Buckle up bitches - we are so back.